Thursday, May 1, 2008

Blind-sided.

Thursday is gymnastics day. Jill argues every Thursday about going. She loves it once she gets there, but she argues EVERY single time non-the-less. I threaten to lock her into her room until she turns thirty if she doesn't go. We have a staring contest until I win, then she stomps off to gymnastics.

Today she walked in the door, asking to skip gymnastics before she even put her backpack down.

"Fine by me."

She looked at me shocked. Then, deciding to press her good luck, she asked for a friend to come over.

"Do your homework first."

She looked at me confused. "Mom, you know it is Thursday, right."

I nodded.

"Are you sick?"

Nope. Just sad. And mad. Mad that I have to make Emmi go through more tests. Emmi finished up the last of her antibiotics today. When I called the specialist last week, they seemed unconcerned with her kidney infection. It had been almost a week. I thought we were in the clear. Then the call came. I recognized the number, I assumed they were calling to check up on Emmi.

They weren't. Because of Emmi's test results we need to do a renal ultrasound right away. Not a problem. It is an easy test. We also now have to do the VCUG, the test I have been putting off. Every talks about how horrible it is. How much their children scream during it. How they are hurting after it. They can't be sedated, because it alters the test results. It is going to be horrible. And that may not be the worst of it. It may all lead up to her having surgery. Soon.

And suddenly I am very tired. I am tired of doing this all the time. I am tired of being blind-sided. It isn't fair. I want someone else's life. Well, at least for a day.

12 comments:

Ashley said...

Hey...

Sucks Emmi has to have to VCUG. In all honesty when Avery had it a few weeks back it wasn't as bad as I worked myself up about. Yes, she cried and cried...but she's 1 and she hates to be held down. Once the cath was in and they filled up her bladder with the contrast...it was fine. It also didn't last as long as I thought it was going too.

They were super nice too....Emmi will do great. Sucks she has to do it..but she will do great!

I am Trish Marie said...

I found out right before Emmi's dance class. Two sets of parents started telling me horror stories! I wanted to cover my ears and hide under the chairs.

J said...

Seriously? That blows. I am sorry. You can come have my life for a day, anytime.

And? We all soooo need to get together. It would be a blast!

Allie Bear said...

I'm so sorry, but Emmi will do great and you will be strong for her like you always are. You're a great mom and just like you are lucky to have Emmi, she is lucky to have you.

rubyredruca said...

Hang in there, Emmi will need you to be strong for her. She sounds like one tough cookie with all she's been through so far.

Erin and Liann said...

That sucks but Emmi is a tough little girl and you are a very strong woman. No one should have to go through what your family has to deal with but you are definately close enough and strong enough to handle this. I'm sending good vibes your way!!

XOXO
Lee

Tiffany said...

Sending some Tippy love!

P.S. Shame on those mommies for scaring you! You don't tell horror stories to someone about to face the very same thing. Unless it's child labor.. spread the word on that one!

Muah!

Not a Granny said...

Awww...sending love and hugs and good thoughts to all of you!

Think of it this way, it could be snowing!

That Chick Over There said...

(((hugs)))

You probably don't want my day either.

David said...

Emma will do fine. You are going through a funk. I want to have your sense of humor and take on life for a day. You pick up so many people, turn our yuck days into a huge smile. The world owes you one Trish. It's coming, hang in there

amy <> said...

I'm so sorry Tricia. Hang in there!

Tina said...

HUGS.